Tuesday, 27 December 2016

cam again




So why
I woke up this morning and I was thinkin about u
There was a time that ur all I could think about
It was one of the things of 2016
It happened
Eggs happened
Giraffes
Agents
No jobs
All
Crashed and burned
It s been a long year
A great year
How can anyone afford to be really mean
I got ur wallet
I got ur back
It ll be fine
I hear u sayin
It was a nice letter
The word kinda does it
It didn’t have to be like that
Swallow hard
Just a letter
So I m sitting at a café
Let s share
I appreciate life
I get it
Do u
Or do u just sulk
Am I judging
Is it a drama
To live without the person u love most
What I have done to my parents
What life did to u
I suppose
I don’t know
I believe u
Is it time to be sympathetic
Is that what it was about
It s always that
The empathy
The understanding
The acceptance
It ll be fine
The dismissal
The russel brown
The tony hard
The this an the that
Im in russel square
I m lyin
Im all right
Im playful
Im smiling
Im happy
I didn’t add the g
I did nothing
I love sex
I like love as well
It s an understatement
U can never find both
To my experience
My experiental habbit
Of experiencing
Ing
I mean I like a lot of sex
And when love
Ah
I don’t get it
It becomes something else
A means to an end
This is the thing
Sex without love Is just sex
And sex is enough to be without
That s how I feel it
Is that bad
Is it weird
Is it frown upon
I mean
What else do u want
Ur connected
For the love of god
How mis aligned are ur attachment patterns

And I mean what is love
A whole new story
Next of kin
But u r never gonna have sex with ur dad

So sex
To me
Is my only habit
My habitual environment
I don’t exist without it
I can t focus
I cant concentrate
Is it the same
It s disarming
Uninhibited
I can t do it
But with u
It s something I guess
Like an expression
A manifestation of love
And I like it
And I don’t like it
Cos It s more than sex u see
It s that little bit of extra
Tryin to be somehtin else
Tryin to be something that it s not
Cos it s not
Just sex
Is it
But I want it to be
It s my favourite habbit
It s a bubble
It s a pattern

Do I want it to be
Do I chase it
No
But I also like it simple
Is it less
I hear u sayin
Maybe
Perhaps
An analysis
Cultural analisis
Anal
So
It s like that

A good fuck
The ingredience
Inhibition
Judgement
Mode of creativity
Dash behavior
Dash somewhere else
How are u doin
Im diggin
Im dippin in
Im tryin
It s awesome
It s a habbit
It s a free falling
What else do u need
What else does anyone need
I wonder
When im fuckin
I really for the life of me wonder
How much better can it get
Can it occupy my soul
Or my spirit
Does it matter
Swallow hard
I mean it can be the one thing that turns u on
That fully occupies u
A mindful experience
A meditation
What else do u need
And where do u draw this from
Swallow hard
How much more can u tolerate
Compensate
Contain
Ur capacity
Is all im sayin
There s no way it s bigger
Wether u love the other person or not
If the sex is good
It doesn’t matter
That s it I said it
Ur turn
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