deluded

Hey ho

You betta ask me to dance

And simon cowels hair

What if

You like simon cowels hair

Is that a fetish

Cos u r not supposed to like it right

I mean

Is it a cult where people go can I have simons cowel haircut

I wish I couold google it

In any case

I don’t mind the guy

He s a guy

He s overrated

Like any other guiy

He s all right

Dwells on self respect and you know

He s proud

He gets offended

Blah blah

But me

No I m not a narcissist

Cos I m a schizophrenic

And u can t have both

But

But

It s ok

Art  incorporated

And self diagnosed

It’s a disease

It s not easy

It s all right

Americans can do it

Africans can do it

I can t do it

I decided

Can is not really a capacity it s an alternative state of being

It s a wish

It s a disease

It’s a dept

Yes it s all right

You can choose

You have a choice

Yes

You have a choise to fuck it up or not

If you choose to fuck it up , against your better judgement

You used your lower self

And not your higher self

Yes

You used simon

If you didn’t

You chose not to]

Good for you

You used Barbie

What just happened here

I m not wearing my contact lenses and all of a sudden the screen shows the letters really bid

I m scared

But it still says arial twelve

It s a miracle

I believe in miracles

I believe in stopping the time bending the spoons

Energy

Atomic energy

I mean I need to exlplain not to destroy cities

Anyway I mean

Who do  u know

My Barbie is there staring at the room

When she looks in she s introverted

When she looks out she s extroverted

When she jumps she can fly

I love her

She s my only flatmate

Can I acknowledge her in my book

Would not have been possible without the help of my  barbies and my horses

To be sure to be sure

In an irish mode

In a racial mode

I m horny

Im exercising my channelling of my horniness to a creative activity

And I m contemplating having a shag with xxx

Yes

Could be

Thing is I got a crush on my Italian guy and last time I was with xxx I thought of my Italian guy and I stopped as I thought of what yoga has said and as I want to be true to myself and as I feel it s worth borrowing money off my parents rather than raping myself

Yes

It s also worth noting that I m susceptible to common belief and I do tend to have a relationship for the hell of it

And it is bad

And it is so bad I m actually in it

I m out of it but still traumatised with the lack of clarity as I was in it

It was platonic

It was shit

It really fuckin was

Is it possible that u really cant see it

And you think it s love

Such a challenge

Such a universal disease

Oh it occupies your brain all right

But for all the wrong reasons

If you stay for a moment and meditate it will tell u what to do

And that my friend

Is gonna be the end of that one

Sigh

Winnie the poo

Or you can like dichotomy

Epiphany

Barbie and winnie the poo

You wouldn like that now would you

Am I shallow to say

I want a really hot boyfriend

A really hot boyfriend

A bit like god

A bit like my Italian guy

Or xxx

Something apparently superficial

And

To this point

If you lift the veil

It s the beauty from within

Voualah!!

Ahhaha

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Winnie the poo