dickhead

Why

Why am I so sure he s not hurt or anything

He just didn’t show up and he still hasn’t contacted me via text or facebook

Did he get arrested

Should he get arrested

For being a wanker

A right dickhead

A correct motherfucker

Yes yes

Ce la vie

Why

Don’t ask me why

Sorry have

Conversations on the train

World passing by

Why

Why do I feel like shit

What would yoga say

I had an interview

And bought a nice pair of shoes

And if I tell my friend xxx she will laugh

Cos it s sad and she cant take it

Like when u get raped

It is a bit impossible to admit it to urself

And then to friends

And family

And a court most likely

But not for me

It really felt like I wont really bother dealing with it or examining it

For what it is

For what its worth

I m wearing white

Like a virgin

It s been emotional

What can I say

Destructive

And distractive

Yes yes

Distractivism

Jism

Most correctly attached

To the notion of creativity

Creating a chaos

Could have worked

Would be good

Or would it

It is like an abortion

A mini muffin

Thank god

Thank god I didn’t // // //

Cant say it

I am sensoring myself now

I am demeaning myself

I have no internet

Please keep ur luggage with u at all times

Ie dog

And report anything suspicious to a member of the staff

A dick

Hm

Let s see

Being alive

First step

To creativity

To creating anything I suppose

Although

As a ghost

U don’t have sex

Just the orgasms

Sounds good

Anyway it wasn’t good

Sorry to admit

A couple of good moments

Yes

In the play ground etc

And then we went home and it was too soon

I was acting out a fantasy got to be said

The Chinese girl

It was not bad

It really wasn’t

But I knew he had to concentrate

Concenter

Creativity

Takes a lot

Of guts

And shit

And anyway it is about staying alive

xxx

And I sucked your cock nice and well

To the bottom of my lungs

And I suppose for that only you should have rang

Or checked in

I do not know what is in your head at the moment and what voices do u obey to

But

Butt

I mean for the love of god

Are you broke

Is that what it is

Are u embarrassed

It is worse not to turn up u know

Are u dead

Are you

I don’t fuckin know

Anyway we are about to find out sooner or later

But you do have my keys

My fuckin keys

And I hate you for it

You have the keys

To my heart

To my art

And to my house

You also have my script which apparently you are so interested in

You have not got my vagina

But

According to new information

The octopussy can detatch its mechanism ie tool penis

And it returns back to it

So were I a pussy

U would probably get my drift

I am sorry

It is late

It is just a bit rough

It is a little bit too much

And I am sorry

I didn’t prepare me

I did not

And now

I mean

I am sorry

I just find it hard to locate the mistake

Yet I feel devastated with what happened and I try to learn from it

Take the blame

Is there blame

Do I stop trusting people

Is that really an option

Isn’t that unfair

There is no blame

U just take each case for what it is

A fucked up scenario

To begin with

I m thingking

Why did I not see it

It really doesn’t say anything

Or does it

Am I stupid

I mean

I am excitable

And I do trust people

And shit

And now

Here I am

On the train

To stratford

The guy is disappeared

With my keys

I know where he ll be on Thursday

How about that

I mean

What a dick

Innit

I do not understand

We were fine

We had fun

It was all right

We were open

What is this

I don’t understand

Maybe I ll send it to you

To who

Where

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