liverpool

Why try not to think about it too much

I m like carrey on a bus from Liverpool

And I love you

Liver

And I feel really emotional

I m thinking of chaz and things to do and thngs that have been said

And there s a hot guy on da bus ujust in the same line as me

And

Maybe I meet him

And maybe just maybe I ll need to see if there is a toilet on ths bus

There should be

I need to know

It s functional

It s the way lfe works

Its reassuring

Is attachment

Desbelief

To ur physical system

Ur capacity

Of shit o less

Oh why why haz was sayig about respecting urself and other people will respect u basically

It s about taking urself seriously

And I say

I wanna be playful son

I think I can play that role the bold persona

But

Is t fun

Is it enough

Is it entairtaining

And by that I mean

Am I

Anywyy

I m just entairtaining mysef here

I m entairtaining the possibility of here

And now

Just

Chaz

And fuck tomoro literally we can fuck tomoro

But ere and now

I broke the ice

The tip of the ice

It really was my first and honest recall of feeling this oneness and a different point of view

I ll be fine

It kinda resonated with me

I was happy

And his other wife neded him more that day

And I didn’t so I slept fine in the sofa

Interesting

I woudnt want to pull him as much s I did u can t u got to

Well

I do know he likes me

Even f he doesn’t

It s a bit like this

I will carry on doing my shit and things will fall to place

Apart

It s all the same

Do u recon tho

Xxx

Why xxx

I mean e had this conversation about babies and stuff and it is true t crossed my mnd

But

Butt

Too many things cross my md at one pont

I m not gonna like to you

And junkies and elcoholics and ex junkies and now alcoholics with an alcohol disorder

And

I don’t know is it enough

Is t ever enough

This cluter in my head accumulated

What about tom as o

Oh oh oh

The classy bird

The cheese

Can we all masturbate

Ye I mean I sount chavvy but if I can pull birds like this

Oh dear

No I m sorry but this was one of the most empowering moments of my life

Powering

You make lines on ur face

What wher u thinking

I mean

I don’t know

Do I want to be a single mum

or a cat

or the day of Mormon

or what

Liverpool

A good time

I miss London

No

I do like the craziness though I got to say I am kinda addicted to the possibility

The impossibility

The accessibility

The invinsibility

The invisibilioty

The capital

My ass

The blood stream of consciousness

The universal guilt

The university fees

The shit

The Sunday works

The works

The no works

The fact that I can retaliate and do fuck all in acityof London

Fuck you

I m not moving

Anywhere

I l do my dance and do my art

Swallow hard

And I ll go

Ok

But it is the home tomy creativity

But I d be creative anywhaye

North whales

Dount kow

Lets s ee what about theat cool guy he said

I said

Did I come up a bit too strong

On

Was I trying too hard

I was trying

Bt things had to be said

And I m glad I said them

Sometimes it s good to tell urself and other people and it rings ture or it s an ideal possibility

A true version of who u are

Mm

Sollidays

Shit holdays

Mergency exit

Shit

I want to go to Rhodes

Or to Iceland

Retaliate

I want to go to venice again

I need it

It s my heroin

I m not on heroin by any chnce I just need to be

I just need to be

It s the sky that s looking at me in an air of perfection

And the trains leaning over

Trees

It s the wind that blows this way and the plane that ther eisn t

Ther eis no more

Plane

Or soft plan

Or affirmation

Confirmation

The birds split for who u are

Cerebral blab la

Cancer

We all have it

It s the thing that unite us

Life

For who u rare

Dunno

Who knows really

From a different prestpective

On da bus

Ins pired

Fired

Ha well fingers

Cross

Nowhere to go

No wehre to bee seen

It s the sense of desperation

But the thng is ye

I m going to paris

Nad also I m going to Leicester square

Yes

Well I have no internet but I may as well

Let s see

Do I have internet hereon the bus

The guy is hot

I keep thinking of paul s voice

A voice  I like

A voice I d kill to listen to

A comforting voice

Remember mungo

All these people you know they made a great mstake

And they scard me to a thinking that they made the same mistake again

And

But

End but

Yes it s shit that hit the fan and they float away

But they don’t disolve

Like plastic bags

The dolphis eat them

And become peados

So they have an effect

It s an experiment

What s wit that lonely horse

It wasn’t lonely saw there more

Hopefully happy ish

Well bit like me

This is the thing with me

It s brnging me down this money thing

Before that  had the orgasm

Once u set urself free from the conventions of the internet

The universe

Simlles at u

Is all smiles

And similarities

To ur real self

Ur estate egent

Ur other half

Ur soul

Ur baby

Ur baby soul

Ur chsm

Chizm

Chas

Chimpanzee

Why do I thng of u

U pop into ur mind

Like heroin

Lieke coke

Like good coke

Like bad coke

Coke nontheless

Suagar

Dunno

Let ssee

Positive affirmation

How s that battery hanging

How s that puke of a laugh

Iu liked u the other day

I liked looking at u closely not wantng anything

And everything

All at the same time

All the same

U needed to touch me

I know

I needed that too

Very casually but meaningfully

Felling secure

That s my place

It may never happen but right here I am where I want to be

With who I want to be

Let s see

Something around foot heals my company

My fave company

Do something different

And immediate

Fast

Fast

That s it

Yes babes

Do it

Do it

U r the best

Ur living it

Loving it

Smeall it

Good

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