wow and wow again
this is the beginning of my not so boring novel
model was my first word
initial
document
so we were saying with xxx- the first sign of desparation when u ve been single for too long is you keep saying we- we we
i suspect this width of the novel is gonna be too big
i suspect it s never too big
it s too sad
what do u do
anyhoo
not this again
i m cooking fish- means i m heating the salmon and it stinks the house
but that s just chitchat
it s my ney laptop and the keyboard is a bit too big, and i m not used to it - but i ll learn
learn to trust
it s fourty quid a week to keep a therapist and a boyfriend happy
if i sack my therapist i may break up with my boyfriend
the reason i stayed with him was due to the therapist to an extend
i mean
the place to lose
it s ideal
u just get to find it
it s interesting to know if there is a place to lose
i may call it the place to lose
i ll make this art therapy thingy with titles such as
shit the artworld
the artworld and me
hate without saying
the jobcentre class
middle class frustrations of the middle class
it s a vicious circle for the poor
fuck my ass-rep.
dunno
what do u think is gonna happen
different emphasis
WHAT do u ,,,
what DO u
what do U
what do u THINK
what do u think IS
what do u thing is GONNA
what do u think is gonna HAPPEN
AND WHEN- haha
hm this keyboard is somewhat satisfying
and as i said one good outcome of that job interview is that i made my nails look nice
very city very ladylike
kinda insincere
my hands are beautiful- may be my front cover
saying typing
in neon
like hm sexxxyy
typing
touchtyping
i m not looking forward to forced sex- oh noone does i forget
it s just the way i feel sometimes
it s not necessairily justified- but i m afraid it is
it is
it is
it is
it is
it is
why question me
why question myself as opposed to other people
i m not sure
i m stressed
i m fuckin freakin out
i ll enrol in that stupid thing art therapy is what i do
i m an artist and art therapy is my art- am an expressive artist
yes
give me a break or i ll break ur leg and sign it
it s not necessairily something i wish to discuss- unless you pay me
i m not talking anyway without payment i decided
i m not gonna have a conversation with you no more
or sex
pay me
i need your money
i dont need to talk to you
prove anything
try and convince you
who gives a fuck
i mean what is that- art which is also a disco-
yes i like that alex
i have thought of a helmut discoball and bikes and all-
for the love of god food s ready and i got tartar sauce-
i love my life
god bless
the universe
the internet
blah blah
x
