fuck yeah

is there another one
fuck yeah
in the planet
oh i m writin for u again
i hate that
my lovely friends
sure to know
u ll hate that too







so reset
restart
retard
d
i
c
k
 motherfucker
learn to spell
miss spell
it s been kinda bulldish
bulldish childih emotional sentimental
a man with a ladees penis
is never nice
ye
is not nice





i was gonna say child s
 but i stopped myself
true
not true
another feeling came up
that s all that happened
i was explaining to xxx
i was explaining to myself
i m explaining it now
u can t reserve a heart
learn to love
and live
swallow hard
somewhere in between
that fuck yesturday it was a humangous success
if it was a campaign it would have
if it was a heart attack it would be fatal
if it was a storm it would be hilarious
people were dancin and jumpin and all through the rain
roof
ahh
if it wass
a storm
we done that
if it was a dog it would have been beyonce
haha
if it was a rhythm it would have been styler
what is it
if it was
a tailor made suit it would have been
if it was art it would have been van gogh
fuck off
ha
good enough
if it was
picasso
dunno
if it was expensive
porshe maseratti cross with babies cadilack and smurfs
and a jeep cherokee
always liked it
if it was
a bag it would have been my crocodile bag right here
collecting sperm
had to say it
this bag
ladees and gents
reminds me of an other fuck
but back to this one
if it wassss
retirement it would have been hong kong
chicago
if it wasss
smurfs it would have been syphilis
whats her name
strumfita
if it was
anyway malandory break
seven pm 9 / 29/ 15
if it was a shit it would have been this one

cocomere

see you tomoor
what else is gonna happen to me
my beautiful child
i dont know
it s like that
i m afraid he s leaving
he apologised
the other one didnt
he just did it
cold hearted blood
like a shark
an american shark
with no imagination
indication
teeth
tits
whatsoever
i mean
who does that
i need a boyfriend
i never in my life needed a boyfriend the way i do today
hm
this girl really liked him
i really broke her heart the first time
he said
it s my last nite and im spending time with my friends
ha
am i your friends
mother fucker
he said he loves to fuck me
obviously
demonstratably
i mean
who does that
again
feel like a broken condom
a broken record
strong writing
ha
im afraid so
no imagination
no no it s not real
u get the joke
this is my life
i plan it
like an unplanned pregnancy
this is the best piece of writing yet
and for that
my friends
celavie
to no imagination
x
31 8 15

what could have been

a love story
we r not even two people
we r two halves

see

someone else saw this
someone before me
i am
sylvia plath
now be careful dear
fear of life and everything
fear of life and death and being alive
and dead
as now
as eveer
incomplete
x
17 7 15

ten mins of writing

so where am i
i m doin well networking
is there anything i missed yes
so
check the dude s comedy later irish comedy parloure or something on fb
do this now would be grand
they dont have wfi
for the love of god
for real
that guy was hot in a n adam hot sort of way
there is such thing as an adam hot apparently
didnt know until now
didnt know until my pelvis started shivering
physical emotion
sensation
so i was writin earlier that i wanna live life as a sensory experience
tell me somehting new
lovely set
hahaha
what du u mean
how do u mean that
lovely set
of boobs?
x maria babes
ur awresome
and the more u take urself out of ur shell the more i actually like you
and because i m reserved
in a heart sort of way
not that im sick im just broken
through
and thorough
so i m free
to exist
without belongings
without real feelings of disbelief and disembodiment
without the fuss of where to go and who to be
i m  here
i m now
mindfull
i met a barman i really like
i really think he s hot
i really would like to take me home
and up the ass
in several different ways
i really would like that
i would like that a lot
another thing i discovered
u dont need to rent a room for xmas
or for nyear
or for the fringe
in a hostel
as ther llll be friends u  ll meet
on the other hand
maybe is good to wake up with people
sleep with people
is less desparate
is gonna be fine
i ll be fine
i ll be around
i ll be me
just you and i
knowingly
it s the year of imagination
i wont go to jail
hopefully
it ll be fine
hopefully
i aint done nothin wrong
hopefully
no one can prove it
hopefully
i ll be fine
hopefully
cat sitting is not a crime
meeaawww
xx
14 8 15
tomoro is my nameday!!!!!!

the system in a field

thank you alfie brown

soo the joke
u think ur different
u think ur doin something
it s over five pounds a burger
it s fine
it s what it is

i felt i found god- or indeed that god is lookin after me
when the toilet was indeed so clean
i thought
i must be a good person

what else happened
i just walked in a toilet now uninhibitedly dropped my stuff on the floor
thought
there s no shit
unexpected
how we lower our standards

the cashpoint in the filed charged 3 99
a rich cash point
on top
i guess it s fair enough
brought money in
in a truck
in a horse
according to the myth
that should do

nothing wrong with it

it dont ma ah

all i m sayin
im not even sayin anything

the this and the that
the travelling without a cause with our luggage
is like a syrians control group
sado maso
in any case
good
it s good it s not like that hopefully
and that is not our life
it is however a rush hour
nevertheless
is good enough

it really is the system in a field and i m gonna have to tell u
a vanilla opening with doctor rice and beer in islington will do just fine
just
or skiing in croatia
what is there to do
for us westerners
to cheer ourselves up
i dont know
it s not that we shouldnt be having fun
or should we
but in the state of the arts
the only reference to otherwise reality
was the thing where u dropped ur tent off if you were syrian
to go to syrians
or something
and alfie brown
that sorted me out
it s just
what annoys me
and it sounds like an understatement
and it is
is that we are willing to suffer
for nothing
for fuckin nothing
we did one walk down the lane for the iraq war
i climbed hours of stretched fields to get to a glass of whater
egsactly
pun intended
it s just
the power of the now
the power of the many
its symbolic
watching you me walking up and down doing nothing
essentially
accumulating waste
are we sorted
have we achieved and we r just chilling
i m just sayin

14 9 15

am i done with europe

am i tho
am i done with anything
am i done with the rest of the world
im done
not
it s just
i dont wanna feel limited
and i dont care about australia
in japan i can come and go
and now is the time to crack america if ever
so
if i was to rent the flat for the whole till february sort of way
i could
make a visa application
support it with the fringe thingy
ask the dude ben about this thing in america the agency
get a maseratti
or a porsch
go to new york comedy festival
go to austin festival
they r both in november
go to adelaide festival
do a course in marketing
joking
improve my jokes
kill myself
tick tick
tick
soo
meet xxx
fuck him\
throw him down the river
tie and tale
is not existing in the same way is it
is like that
im here
somene s there
some body part is there
am here
still here
im here
she s there
my heart
overseas
overworking the boundaries
of no tomoro
even tho
this is why
i m so detatched
so completely detatched
and absorbed
in civilization
in reality
of tomoro
today
this is a beautiful city
this is a happy city
with no crime
and lots and lots of money
la
i mean edinbrah
ask vangelis
he knows where to go
it s a good space
knowingly
and unconscioulsy self confident
self aware
it knows its value
it wont rub it in ur face
it s there
bit like me
bit like what i did today
i said the yes and from above
the history of universe
improvisation
rules i learnt
rules of life
rules to become happier and more present
i got the ethos he said
i got the ethos all right
nice and assertive
asking for help
get in there
be yourself
you could say
this girl blew her nose abd i want to blow her away
literally
and physically
and anyway
im here now
so  i breath
and move on
that s how we do it
yes and
and
and i dont give a shit
that s really what i want to say
u want ne to play bu ur rules
i will
mother fucker
i ll say what u want
and then u ll do what i say
it s really like that
lifes golden rule
number one
look after number too
poo
x
knowingly
x 14 8 15

xxx s boudeoir

yesh i m gonna go for that
it s all right isnt it
why not
i mean
it s part of the fringe
and it s got xxx
i ll go check it out
be happy
merry
sweet
sweet mary
oh dear i want to look innocent
i m goin through that
but i lost weight
i can get it back on
but it means that all the clothes that once fitted are now gonna occupy a junkyish lifestyle
i want to recover
it s been a while
a long week
it s always rough before i leave london
i hope i do
it s a stretch
i ll work it out tomoro
and from here
onwards and upwards
get an angel
suck him
x
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