coffee and cock

I would love to have coffee and cock

I can just about get up and make coffee

Cock withdrawn symptom

Which one is harder

Depends on the cock

Coffee can never let you down if you make it

I believe

Anyway it s xxx this time

And although it has nothing to do with me

Does it

Did he just see the end

Did he just I don’t know

Cease to exist

Did he do a hudini

He is troubled

Clearly nothing to do with me

Did he fall in love and out

Did he not fall out

Did he fall in

He fell in

I killed my parents

Sugar?

Do u take sugar?

I don’t want to treat it like another dead man

I m not ready for it

We didn’t have enough

It s only now that I start to feel things and he pulls out

He pulls out

But he s wearing a condom

Why do people do that

What s the fuckin point

Anyway

I don’t know

I can just stay with that

The disappointment and the I don’t know ness

Who cares

Who gives a fuck

Indeed

9 10 14

I care and I give a fuck

And apathy is a disease

Ditch apathy

And fuck the panda

The panda

Fuck the panda

Panda stands for apartheid

It s political

And very very deep

did u like my joke

Yesyes yes

I need to be happier in order to make jokes

It is quite simple really

This is reality

So make a funny dialogue

Hello – dick

Hello- Richard

How are u doday

Well u know same old same old

Cunt! Can t be

It s irrelevant

Belland?

What did u say

Tits

I don’t know there s nothing to get

Tom

Heey buddy- can t hear you

Anyway

What were u saying

Yes bugger off about the work

Distraucht

Really

Initially but-

There s no butt

There s no end to this

Discrepancy

It s the pan cake

It s the fuckin pan cake

It s that that u r still upset about

And the non payment from the dickheads

And how u get to travel round London to get some borrowed money

It s not nice is it

And how u kinda refused to accept the twenty old quit

And how she didn’t buy u the coffee

She should have done

She might have done

Well let s see

We re here we re irrelevant and irreardless

This isn’t funny

Like there s no milk

The dialogue

Someone died today

Some baby had a horrible suffocating death

It would have been my  god baby

But according to the research as I m clever I wont make a great mother

Maybe even a great grand mother

Oh well

I like children but I could t say it s ok to have them

Same as I like whales

I wont take one and put it in my garden

And stuff

Anyway

Lets see

Chaz was funny and very suttle about his cd

Dvd

If I behave

How shall I behave

Like  behaved yesterday

Like there s no tomoro

Like I ll behave tomoro

Like there s no today

Let s see

I could have gone to the opera

I should

I could

I didn’t

I had boring interviews

I had

They were boring

I feel like shit

Shit shit shit

Shit

Lets see

Shit

I mean lets shit

Crapcakes

Ahhaha

Something softens

Something becomes funny

And this isn’t a poem mr anaxagoru

Ur mum?

X meaw

5 3 14

deconstruct

Stillness, freeze, moments of death, anger, shortness of breath. Dead eyes- fingers slipping tense on the bed looking for something, found silk robe ran it like a scarf round my neck, leggings in my mouth-  slow internet!

Deconstraction

De constr act

De activate

De activism

Break the bank

Yess

That gave me an idea

Dea

http://www.academia.edu/2206231/On_Deconstruction_as_an_Aesthetic_Theory

go getter

It doesn’t strike me as a go getter kind of place

La

So there was an interruption but had to be done

Now now

Is like a massive tv where I am

From

It s all pretty cool

And dandy

I forgot to do what I said I d do

So I googled go getter

A little stunt to say I love fb

I mean internet

I mean I use it to my discretion

And I m not its whore

Let the countdown begin story says

People seem more chilled I ftiasidomeni for a reason

Rightly so

You see the dog with the highlighs

And you also see the cool housewife from Islington

Dare I say I like them more here

It s like they r born here

They should be here

Here

It s all right to be here

I could have worn my yellow silk dress

There is no judgement

Here

I like it

Here

It s not about the judgement

Is about allowing

Things to happen

Things to evolve

Just things

Being a bit more prescious

About things

About your life

Not trashing it

Essentially

It s less schizophrenic

Right now I m sitting here in the perfect hotel with my perfect boobs

Cup a

Onwards and upwards

So googled it

Its an idiom

As u d say in Russian

Roulette

I don’t know

That would be a nice stunt

A Russian roulette

I need a volunteer

Ha yesh

I m still laughing

Very American

Can u actually turn up with a gun at a comedy club

I looked at someone today at the bullevard

I said bullevard

And it kinda came out of my mouth

Like a bullevard

So

In the bullevard

Inwards and upwards

I thought better stop

In case he s got a gun

Haha

Anyway other than that I feel pretty safe

Pretty fuckin sorted to be honest

Is like Athens but it s not

It s my adult Athens

My adolescence

Years 12 to what

Anyhoo

Sigh through it

It wasn’t all bad

It was meant to be

We r here now

Sunset bullevard

I mean what a fuckin name

It s inspired

It s something

It s fuckin universal

I like it

I deserve

And I belong

It s Christmas

It s my fuckin present

Relish

Restore

Reward

Reservoir

R an b

And we ll see what happens in the club scene

The comedy club scene

And I ll contact Christiane

And we can share a cigarette

And a buttplug

I know why people move in here

It s nothing compared to London

It s a piece of piece

It’s a place in the sun

Survivor is a failure

Is about being and doing nothing

It s floating away sinking playfully it doesn’t matter

It was nothing compared to lido that swimming experience

And my morning coffee

I love that coffee shop

Its detrimental

How different it is

How okay

I mean why do I feel so different

Lighter

What is it

Time doesn’t fly

It goes

Steadily

You r in charge

I can dream here

It s all right

It s less pragmatic

It s less real

But also more superficial

In a very graspable point of view

You get it

I get it

There s less primark

Less universal guilt

Maybe it s born here but there is less suffering

Less controversy

It s a bubble of wannabees

But it doesn’t offend you

You don’t feel like an outsider

You feel initiated

Intimidated

Perhaps

But on the whole

U belong to plaza

Whatever that means

Xx

24 12 there

23 12 here

made for living

Engineered to last

Germain green

So

Then then

What was that about

I m there – the girl with the skirt has an annoying air and cant take a compliment

Thank you very much

And she took xxx

It was very awquard

Fuckin as bad as the spelling

Yes yes

So this happened

I said

I don’t get it

This isn’t awcquard

Almost

Isn’t it

Getting there

What do u recon

Of course he got it

He s a musician

For fucks sake

For the love of god

Of all gods

For heavens sake

Xxx

Hwat the fuck are you doing

Twat

U twat

I understand u needed to do it

And I forget

I forget

But u know

What he said is

Looking for love even if u don’t deserve it

I get it

And in the little while I felt I love u

And also

For the record

I never had diarrea before my performance

But I had before yours

Just so u know

Twat

I know u know

On some level or another

The secret is

To love yourself babes

But it seems to me and as u said u weren’t appreciated

And ur always up for a challenge

So u don’t like being told off

Or told what to do

Or think

Twice

For that matter

Twat

I mean

I don’t hate u but u did hurt me

Deliberately or not I don’t know how well u think it s gonna go down

U leaving with another woman

I mean

Fuck

Hardcore

I mean

I don’t give a shit

U can fuck yourself

But I thought we had something

I suppose

Am supposed to forgive and forget

But I m already coming out of a relationship in my head

And I suppose a bit of salt to ease the pain

Tricky

How awkward

Ooh

However

The right pronounciation

Ouuu

U didn’t expect that did u

I must admit I didn’t

If that was the trick

Of all tricks

Licks

Wont matter

Anyway

I did enjoy the blow jobs

And our conversations

I wish we had more

Salt and pepper

Pippa

U know what I mean

I ve beed dismissed for so long

Too long

People just don’t

They don’t

They just don’t

They don’t

Why

What about that twenty five year old

I loved it

I fuckin loved it

And we danced

But he loved xxx

He wont care he fucked me

But he ll be in the same group as me

I recon

I ll get my eggs

And egg them on

We ll be like violent femmes

The ones

That fall in love

With the same woman

Oh come on

The go ur own way

Anyway

Like coolness

In the past

Like the old blue last

Like u and me

Like

Forever and ever moraki mu

I m sorry

Honestly

Some fuckin nerve tho

Got to give him that much

What was that

That was quick- or something

He didn’t want to break up

Ha

We did have a moment

And that is egsactly what I was talking about

He was scared

Of ripping me off

He knew it

Fuckin fuck him

I had a good nite

And it s been emotional

What can I say

I m sorry

Too soon too late

To forgive and forget

And do it allover again

In the playground

In the bushes

And u know

In my bush for that matter

Cos u aint getting any

Black ass

Mother fucker

Go to

Costcutter

I don’t care

I don’t care

I don’t care

I don’t

Care

Who cares

Who was that girl

How long do u know her

Does it matter

Who the fuck

What about

Oh seriously

Maybe I cant take the crap

The whole shit

The holistic

The politix

Fuck sake

All I fuckin need is a fuck

A fuckin fuck

A flying fuck

A fuck and for all

An asshole

All I need is an asshole

Once and for all

Apparently

Americal apparel

What s the politics

What s the agenda

Namaste

Fuck you mister

For fuck sake

Xxx

16 5 14

Me

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