from the moment i met you

From the moment I met you

I felt there was gonna be a struggle

Let me rephrase that

From the moment I met you]

I felt I had no control/ a struggle

A challenge

Which one is also important

So I gave in and I gave up

Means the first one

Oh right

Oorr

A pain in the ass

All this is like frozen fish

Frozen in time

In time

Frozen

I did not mean for us to stop being together

Ever

I don’t think I thought so far ahead

I didn’t need to

I felt safe

At this moment in time

Interesting

Now now

Now

However now

I feel that I m building it up

Onto a case

A case that otherwise is non existant

There is no drama

There is no fool

And there may be just that

 A significant other

We otherwise manipulated ourselves

Into a spherical scheme

Will you marry me

God knows

Do u believe in god

All these things I don’t know about you

I d like to get to know you

That s all

I d like to stop responding to non existant schemes

Of manipulating consciousness

Of consciously manipulating

Or is it just behavioural therapy

Or is it just being polite

I d like my vagina polished please

And that s all I want to say to you brian

Anyway

I m sorry

What

What was that

I m overhearing my mum saying my name

This is not my imagination

I m filling you in

But you

Your self

You are not

Babes

I m tellin you

I couldn’t deal with that last message

The smoothness

Like a baby s bottom

Like your bottom to be fair

I couldn’t

It had all the elements of confusion

Like I can t babe

Is like keepin u close keepin u keen ur a babe ur all good

We r all good

You are not crazy

But

I also don’t want to piss you off wind you down

It s just too much

I couldn’t do it

There s nothing wrong with it that s all

Maybe I couldn’t deal with something when there s nothing wrong with it

There is tho

I rang you and you didn’t pick it up

And you didn’t call me back

You didn’t read my texts clearly

You just didn’t spare a moment in this

In me

You just brushed through it]

Like there s no tomoro

Today

You didn’t

It s fine

I m just saying

All I asked for was for your time

And your attention

Everything

The most

The max

All I could ask for

All I wanted

The dick

And the sides

Yes

Okei cos that s all I wanted

I wanted everything

I always wanted everything

Like there s no tomoro

Today

But I can wait

On call

I can be put on hold

On demand

I cant I don’t know

It s just the patronising element

The chill out babes your out of line

The oh your emotions are running wild

I cant do it

I don’t want to

It takes a while

It takes a while for me to be able to express them

And this is when my parents come in

I felt they were ridiculed

The word is hash and can and does bring tears to my eyes

And stuff

And you

And me

And everything

And bricklane coffee shop

And the park

That we were

And that I told you that I wouldn’t have met you

And your mention of class

And yes you read my mind

Did you think I m in it for the dosh?

It did cross my mind

Did it?

I might have been

I don’t question myself

I swallow hard

I mean

Come on

Russel brand

Yes

Success

But you

I felt so cool I felt I felt I felt I wanted to offer you everything

A different experience

A different you

And me

I loved you

I wanted to seduce you and be seduced

Like there s no tomoro

Today

Babes

It was romantic

I felt

It was something more than romantic

It was real

I m not sure any more

I don’t like any of this

Nanait

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