obviously

obviously the interent s not working
thing is
why do i know that
i do
cos i m super sensitive
ha
it s not magical thinking
it s what it is
is how my life works
why it works
it s fine
it s gonna be
it was always fine and it was always gonna be
remember when tim left?
that was something
remember when u got raped
and the this and the that
and the now
u r making history
history repeating
we ll see where that goes
for the moment
do ur comedy and break america
and london
as u do
and as u know
is very important
11 7 15

i knew

this cafe was gonna be annoying
so lets see
plenty of information
thing is
the beauty
and the beast
ninety three feet easty
u wanted a poem
u needed one
someone to shock you
i could - go to brixton- after i rang edinbrah
how tho
it s lousy weather
and it s shit
and basically i could use the skype
but line will be bad
and there s no tomoro
again
knowingly
jeesus

i mean there s salsa music
like there s no tomoro
again
honestly probably the best worse music
it s painful
aoh dear
its as bad as that fuck was
in reverse
u with me
it s baadaass
but good
oh my god
that was good
and at some point my xxx was hurting
what is xxx
in this case i m writing for u guys
i m glad i could ask
i can be spanked and sorry
and worthless and cool
knowingly
if degraded is what does it for you
in bed
in sex shall we say
cos we have no time to be primitive
and sorry
like there s no tomoro
so yes
it s wild
it can be sensitive
didnt mean a word
 i say
what i m sayin just now has no meaning
for once
i agree
with you
ha
isn it
ahhh it s okay
i should better meditate
once we know i havent missed the deadline
lets see
what i know
is what i learnt
what i do
and what not to do
and anyway
if i am
to fuck like that
i have to say
i m sorry
and forgive god in advance
for what s gonna happen to me
cos i fuckin love it
24 7 15

why

i m just using a plug that says not for public use
there s something relatively exclusive about the artworld
the writers world
europe
blah blah
europe by the way idiots is a city
i mean a continent
a geographical orientation
is not money
it seems so too
eurozone and euroblow and eurobollox is in the news today
and i dont watch the news
my computer is slowing me down
is a new level of frustration
so yesturday i decided apart from helpin people in syria i ll be hosting classes i ll be a kinda hooker at
a visual hooker
a spectator
so people can draw me
pervy but it pays well and it s gonna work
i can write at the same time
it can be a form of de frustration
it can be a workshop on spirituality
the sleaze from afar
should be good
come watch
me cum
cos im bound to get horny
it s gonna be great
you can all sit there with a boner decided to draw me
draw between the lines
there
i m happy
i m happy and sad
i m sad
i m sad and happy
i need to eat more
i can get this amazing cake since my apetite s gone since it is indeed soo hot
i turned up for my class at the wrong studio
now i remember
i made an effort
by this time i m allover the shop
i bought a dress and a onesie
i love my life
i spoke to remy
couldnt have done anything
it required installation
celebration
cerebral occasion
co ordination
none of those things should be done
in the history of nothingness
and there s no tomoro
today
i did a walking meditation
shoes
mindfulness
i decided im goin to iran
iraq
afganistan
one of them
i m goin for the cake
oh dear
that s gonna be great
i can t wait!
she s such a junkie- i just spotted this girl blah blah
i know stuff
i should be a comedian
haha
do i know too much
what do i do with myself
tho
i can make mike s video on u pube
this cake has enough callories to sustain me and my family in syria
in afganistan
uzbekistan
kurdistan
this is just for americans
places we know
name dropping
literally bombs
a bit like that
what do u recon
i checked with somepeople from the north
writers
god knows
they can spell for shit
fur shit
i dont care all that much
i dont really care about writers from the north
there i said it
am i supposed to now
i m more interested in junkies
just cos theyr from the north and they can pick up a pen they have a pool of opportunities
i tell ya
they can spell furshit
same as damien hirst
the other one
the scotish
so then then
nothing to say
i m not polyamorous at all - someone shouted across the hallway
i m exaggerating
u get it
im writing for u again and my computer is havin a tantrum
anyway
i ll have sex with xxx
cos i feel it cos it s good for me
it s sex and i ll have it once a week minimum
at some point i ll get pregnant and we ll have a baby
me and my vagina
i ll be on benefits at this point i ll be childproof and i ll be single
i ll be making jokes about everyone and anyone and i really hope i ll have gone to iraq cos that s good for my cv
yes my bio
is like a way to uplift my spirit and let anyone know i m better than nothing
im more than meets the eye
and DO NOT LOSE UR BOOBS
eat the cake
and meditate
heartful advice
love u babes
x

yes you

i dont need to write no more
i like it here
it s sunny
i could go for a walk
r sop lookin at my computer
its pretensious
at this point
i need to google things
i just need to google things
i need to check pretensious
americans have given up on the spelling whatsoever
maybe
let s start with the maybe
maybe babeline
maybe
a baby in the beginning is a big responsibility but is also like a dog
a lap dog
what makes u think ur not equipped
u r well equipped
u ll have a baby with the ginger bloke
u turn him down
completely
utterly
u de confuse him
what s the point
i wanna know
why does he not want a link inn
why does he not want a residency
in my vagina
i m gonna message him that
is it the very reason
is quite funny tho i must admit
is true
incapacity
to succeed
to exist
existential psychosis
who are you
who am i
etc etc
i m an intellectual
i studied psychology purely to intimidate people
whos in trouble
it s really true
and now i m a comedian
years in therapy
that should do
it could definately be something to explore
a role
a definition
intuition
so mister therapist
what brings you here
wouldnt it be hilarious
to go to a therapist and pretend u r the therapist
i m definately doin that
for the laugh
for the fun of it
it s fifty quid
well spent
ur like hello
condensending smile
slightly intimidating appologetic assertive
a cramme
the person s like hello
u r both the same
mirroring each other
it s really about who s gonna speak first
so he s like
what brings u here
but before that
baamm
u hit them
same question
theyr like stunned
i think that s the fifty quid right there
this is the thing u need to discover
how much they can recover
of themselves
my therapist dropped her chin and that s all i have to answer for
she needed a therapist
before me
two people have dropped their chins in front of me\
and many more have lost their shit
i believe
doctor
who gives a shit
the doctor
the doctor who dropped my chin tho
that s how i fell in love
in lust
with cinderella
that s when i knew it wasnt real\
it wasnt gonna last
lust
thats when i knew
and when he ate my pussy
like there s no tomoro
and i said something
he said
i told you
i ll eat your pussy for an hour
thanks doctor
and for that
u need to be forgiven
forever
for science
for the love
forever and ever moraki mu
i ve had a good time]
that was a perfect story
that was a story of london
born in london
i dont exist outside london he said
that was my long last london crush
eric
phil
whatever
didnt matter
it was mike
indeed
well
and that shit about trust
that was my shit
and he agreed
he agreed and we both agreed
we fell in love with the same pussy
from a different angle
at the same moment
believe me
who does that
and he said
you are a dirty girl
and i was wearin my gown
why had he thought that
i was wearing my groin on my sleeve
my hand at my heart
my heart on my sleeve
whatever
whatsoever
and i lost my wallet
and he never paid
paid me back
i didnt
i wasnt expected
i was treated like a whore
nicely
he offered for me to go back
and he was the closest thing i had
to goin back to
but i didnt
was it an invite
it was nice
i wanted to leave him with his flatmate
they were proud
of how hot i looked
it s true
i d have a threesome
anytime of the week
but i did feel there s no tomoro
today
and then he told me i m his type
and he leaned across me
and he laid there
and i loved it
i loved him for it
all i need is affection
i can love
and laugh
i can be
around interesting people
i can be happy with myself
and them
it s five fifteen and my class is in fifteen minutes
off ski
x

fear

so
anybody likes to read that
i dont have skype and  dont understand how it can be so active
interesting
isnt it
on that note
can i give a bit of guidance
i m wearing a silk dress
scarf
nevertheless
my back s cold
i am leaning against an ancient wall
my friends in america would love it
i ll grab a chair
grab i said
that s soo american
yep am sitting down on a wet chair
that s so english
nevertheless
do u thnk
sofia is ever gonna love me
my little girl
do u love yourself
that much
u are
starting today
it seems a lot
to love
a lot of urself denied
in the history of years
but lately
u just go for it
u went for it
u ment it
it s not how u discovered
and it somehow wasnt rewarded\
it appears
it may appear
it s political
it does matter
cos it s conditioning
a million things happened nevertheless
u did karaoke
like there s no tomoro
ur biggest fear
of no tomoro
fulfilled
like a self fulfilling prophecy
can t google it
am i sayin it rght
don ma ah
russel brand
love you boy
i wanna follow ur footsteps
i already started listening to ur motivational tape
why is it important
for the rest of the world
cos i m part of it
thank you
i m probably in the list
of survivors
of there s no tomoro
ow now this woman started emptying the bucket
of my life
contains lime and sugar
some of my favourite smells
i m being silly
tryin to manipulate myself
trying to move myself from reality
and breath out
only exhale
how is that
a bit like life
sometimes
the thing is
it s the only thing that works
so what s stressing u out
it s money
essentially
and why have the taxes left me alone
why i dont understand
do u think they forget
they forgive
they dont give a shit
they do in the case of macdonnalds
and starbucks
and anyway
who gives a shit
i m goin to edinbrah
the case will disappear
will ceaze to exist
until may
until then
i ll be able to buy my own house
like there s no tomoro
today
until then
im in a flat in shropshire
not knowing what to do with myself
its life
its schizophrenia
it s that guy in russia
that s actually really good
he s passionate
and he s blunt with words
and creative\
and i love him
that much
he represents himself
like there s no tomoro
today
and i love him
for what it is
for what he was
wants
and what he represents
i love him because
he is himself
not some manipulated version of himself
to fit society
and what he wants
it s himself
it s him
and he speaks his mind up
and he s fuckin cool
and sexy
and i love him
and he s perfect
and i left a msg on his fb wall
and i m watching the ants
they r snogging endlessly
and theyr fascinating
they see the point
maybe
they r like chinese people
is work fun
are they artists
who knows
nobody knows
u like history
who s watchin the ants
psychiatrists
scientists
whos gonna tell us
somehow
that there s no tomoro
and they take pleasure on their depth
work
and it s really like that
they r not working like assholes
like there s no tomoro
today
dying
knowingly
that they were overworked and malnurished
cos they werent
cos that s nature
that s life
that s meditation
doin what u love
existing in a different realm
in a bubble
of no tomoro
today
and that making u happy
not cos u wanna die
but cos u r alive
there u go
ant
make me smile
x
22 7 15

a temporary closure

so
i t s like a seal of a deal
it s like
computer fucked up again
but
i didnt
it s like using sex for money
money for sex
either
it s like russel brand
ment to say
an emotional cocktail
and what else
i cant remember
after fuckin like this for an hour
it s hard to get back to the real world
evidently
so simon
and xxx simon
it s not too late
to fuck it up
just did
try it
x
13 7 15

cherry fuckin blossom

where are you at
i dont know
unfortunately
what happened
did you know
life is like that
i mean
a perfect day in the woods and then baam
a beam is falling off
on ur head
a beam contains an australian accent
the whole episode is in australian
the guy was hot
i can  t stop sayin the guy
wat s his name
auzie superman
duperman
he was all right
we could see that comin
but anyhoo
maybe i ll keep in touch with him and maybe i ll see him in september
maybe i ll be friends with adam when i get another lover
maybe
maybe i should just stop speculating and maybe i should go out
i am always out
maybe
maybe i m just out an about as a friend trying to make friends new old friends friends
maybe
maybe i m just me
maybe
a social pussy cat
maybe
maybe it s just me
maybe the cats are up to something
maybe it s the neighbours
maybe
maybe adam passed me with his car today
maybe
maybe i m just a drama queen
maybe
maybe it s just you
and me
maybe
maybe babyline
maybe
what do u recon i should do
maybe
maybe it s for you and me
maybe
maybe a break up requires meditation
breakdown
eitherway
any other way
to say
i m sorry

yes and

the concept of improvisation
what do u recon
my computer stopped fuckin up
it will start again
so i spoke to hue grand
its been real
real emotional
detail
what do u think
that guy was weird
he was completely fucked up
he was such an asshole
was he tryin to scare me
like i d let u pay for the bill
well dear i d call the police
i know where u live
whatever
good luck with that
u think u r being clever
u can have a criminal record and enjoy your vagina
if the person is reading on my laptop this is not my fault
a disclaimer
in any case
hope she s not a teenager
she is reading all right
i mean she can read
and with that
we r movin on
to homerton
the guy interviewed me
he was like what u doin
im like i m all right
are you not letting me back
i mean i can stay here
it is not a problem
mister officer
you have more men
more retarded individuals
five more days and i d eat pussy
haha ha this s not an advert
this says a lot about the men in here
in LA i mean
god sent me adam
we know that
i ll change my name to eve and tell him
it s a sign
what do u recon
in any case love
it s been emotional
ur comedy kicks ass
what else do u want
yes we know
just be patient with urself
just be patient overall
what about tomaso
u remember how devastated u were
or michael
thing is
it all crashed and burned in this lates crush
let s just see
lets just say
there s no tomoro
today
and u didnt live it
properly
or at all
but u proposed
and you gave your heart
like there s no tomoro
again
there
x

how do u feel

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part of me wants to go to my house in london and cry so much
part of me wants to cry for the frustration of this computer
part of me just wants to cry cos my ear is buzzing so hard
part of me was gonna say much
part of me
you wouldnt believe what i m goin through with this laptop
part of me
part of me wouldnt believe
part of me
which part of me
the part with the no tomoro
part of me wants to kick the cats in advance
part of me knew she wasnt gonna eat anything
part of me
you wouldnt believe
literally it wont let me type
literally!!
see what i did there
part of me
adam
i was gonna see adam today
part of me
but was a shit party
part of me
isnt my city
but i m rollin it
part of me was gonna say rockin it
i m rockin it
like a boat
like my bitch
part of me is a moody bitch
part of me is havin fun
part of me was gonna type happy
i swallow hard
but i have fear in life
faith
part of me
was gonna have fear of life
you recon
part
of me
is art
just are
we just are
part of me misses charlie
part of me is charlie
part of me is my mum
part of me is adam
definately adam
part of me wants to see what happens
part of me can t believe the fuckin computer is actually talkin to me
its taking over
you wouldnt believe
for real
so yes
it s an interesting period
part of me can not believe that now that i want it
i can go and get it
it s down the road
it s literally down the road
can t believe what happens
part of me
part of me
part of me
knows i m retarded
part of me
which part tho
part of the soul
part of me knows is rottin
part of me wants to know of this computer
how it has become so annoying
whatever happened to its childhood
or the child that made it
part of me
part of me knows it tries
of tires
part of me
that guy was hot
all of them were hot at some point
jonnie and max
i swear
part of me
part of me knew its name
part of me
part of me is just art
isnt it
arent we all
part of me still wont believe wats happening
part of me
part of me dont knows
part of me who knows
part of me\
am i gonna send you this letter
part of me knows i should
part of me
which part of me is just art
and a car crash
part of me
who knows
there s no tomoro
the possibility
part of me loves detatchment
part of me cant believe is here
part of me
who knows indeed
part of me see what happens
part of me likes goodtimes at david waynes
part of me had a boyfriend called wayne
part of me couldnt kiss him
part of me thought his dick was real\
really deliscious
really the reason
really
the reason
and holly
and there s no tomoro
today
and i m the chosen one
and the flattery
and the easiness
and the hypotheses
and mark
i can have boyfriends
i can have a boyfriend
yes
why did max leave
why did mad max leave
that answers our questions
part of me is bored
part of me is tired
part of me isnt gonna show u this letter
or my tits
all of a sudden
part of me
is just me
part of me is leaving
the other part remains the same
part of me wants to see what happens
part of me wants to look inside his head
part of me knows
part of me
doesnt
and part of me]
doesnt wanna know
isnt it
isnt it the part that knows
honestly
part of me couldnt wait
part of me couldnt pay
with the commitment
part of me couldnt play
part of me was contemplating
the possibility
i lost you for one minute
document
part of me doesnt know you
and part of me is thinking of someone else
part of me knows u paid
rapidly
honestly
you felt bad for one minute there
and then u turned it into a joke
you are a joke amongst your closest friends
i am the joke as well
i swallowed hard
somebody has to do it
i mean
how do i uninstall these shit
why is everythin happens over here
how hot was that girl
i wouldnt wanna be her
i wanna be me
but still
who can uninstall these things
honestly
happily
who
and how
and why
i ve unlocked the task bar
maybe if things were free they wouldnt be allover the place
maybe that s what i do
i uninstall the task bar
i stop everything from happening
maybe i m the glue
maybe its the girl
maybe he s crazy about her
maybe he knows what happens
maybe so do i
maybe
maybe it s not that tragic
it s possible
its logical
its emotional
maybe
maybe if max hasnt arrived
maybe he wasnt there
he was so hot
maybe
maybe he thinks i like vaginas
maybe i do
maybe it s the only way
maybe
and maybe yes
and maybe it was and may be it was always and maybe i need a husband
for the sperm
and to take me to burbank
maybe
maybe baybeline
maybe i lost faith in men when my dad was born
maybe i should say about my mum
maybe i m in love with myself
cos it s the only one
it s the only one person that trully loves me
maybe it s the only one person who knows how to love
without to offend people
maybe i m speakin italian
maybe i m losing my shit with my computer
maybe is the only way
maybe i go to bed
to chill
maybe
maybe baybeline
maybe i want adams baby
maybe
who knows
and who gives a shit
indeed
maybe
maybe ur messin with me
maybe only knows
god only knows
knowingly
maybe
maybe if i write like that more things will disappear
maybe if i write like that i ll be able to track it down
maybe it s more annoying
maybe
maybe shit happen cos they know i m ready for it
maybe i m not
maybe i just ignore them
maybe
maybe if the time stopped popping up\
maybe if the desktop stopped goin crazy
maybe this happened for a reason
but for what
peculiar really\
peculiarity effect\
maybe i should start watchin some porn\
maybe it justifies the point\of stayin in\
of stain in
maybe
my computer wants to disappear\
maybe the only way is to watch porn\
oprah
maybe \
i ll do it now
maybe today\
x

yo

so
english retarted men you are much better than american retarded
men
there s a whole new level of retarded here in america and if you are reading this and you think is this me i guarantee you its not
it s just you know their mind wouldnt work like this
but here s the thing
its appealing
its baffling yet again why is it
baffling
i mean
what would they know
do i sound hostile
angry with the world
i mean
it s not how good you are its how good u wanna be
but on the opposite
it s not how retarded you are it s how retarded you are not
and you are
slightly even more retarded
than you would be
had you tried to put the effort
my computer is pissing me off
it keeps stopping me and flashing the time or what it remembers
what it deems important
just like you
my retarded friend
for instance
you said
i ll come back
and you didnt
or to my friend
you said i ll msg u the address
and it took you this long
how long
is too long
as long as your penis
let it be
let it sink
in
into the sand
into the ocean
like a dolphin
in an out
i dont mind
i m just sayin
i m just interested
how retarded is your limit
does it have a bottom
when do we reach it
do we reach an orgasm
together
ever
cos you are retarded
i mean can u even synchronise
your muscles
your brain is a muscle
clearly
battery is running low
patience is running low
good luck with that
collision centre
is now closed
namaste
6 10 15- cos we r in america

there s more edge on an egg

someone had said that on facebook
so the thing about london
it s become like islington
that would never happen
but it did
is like a mechanism that spread
a disease
but i dont want to make it dramatic
cos it adds personality
thing is
we need to take it out
it s the non personality
that counts
that occupies london at the moment
is a bit like a whiff
a pregnant womans fart
a sweet smell of nothing
fuck you
in other words
i can t believe that it s happened but it s happened
you can deny it
you can create a life that suits you
but what is around you is that sweet smell of fart
thank you
same as new york i believe
it doesnt even matter
the word evolves and invariably it becomes boring
it is boring
i can t live with it
i m moving out
in la i felt like a hippy
i went saw my favourite band
i did my dance classes
i ate well without it being the centre of my attention
i did not take pictures of my food and share
thank you
i drove around in an uber
uber hippy
and i came across a taxi driver that we agreed that for a place to inspire you to move into
it can not be new york or london
jack nicholson is looking for a girlfriend by the way
a last romance
he said
do u think he can get me pregnant
what do u recon
a jack nicholsons child should age well
as well
in any case
like expensive wine
what a sleazy expression
like you know about wine
six ninety nine from tescos
but anyway
tescos is still my reality i believe and im goin back to it
maybe i ll go to glastonbury
maybe glastonbury would be the only one transition that makes sense
maybe that s what i need
and from the sixth i ll have my place in the sun
in homerton high street
interesting
i may think
it may hit me
the thought of being away from adam
it is crazy
what s keepin me here anyway
but the word crazy is an offense
i take it back
what i ment is
is is what it is
you can be in love with a person that doensnt like you
more so
it s an interesting place
the taxi driver said
la is stupid
it used to annoy me how stupid it is
it s like a lobotomy
on a certain level
it s fine
it s equally fine
and there s no money in the tv industry
it s full of reality tv
again and again
so what do u recon
do u wanna live here
does it matter
the best thing here- or one of - is the self publication in nobles and barnes
the flow is lost again and again as a result of my windows falling off
so what about the two greek people that i met
it was love at first sight and we decided we r a couple
a three some
an awesome couple
let s see what life brings
but in la i m well connected
im a mile away from my connections
in london i guess i d have to look for them
but anyway
lets see
even simon waterfall moved here
what do u say
i didnt know
he was from here
to me he was very english
but he had an american attitude in england
and that s what worked
now if i have an english attitude in america
is that gonna work
the accent does
never the less
im sorry
an english american doesnt work anywhere
and he certainly doesnt drive an uber
celavie
say i m sorry

yes so i ve just woken up

and i dont know if i had enough time to be smat
art
act
however u wanna call it
i havent just woken up
i just met a builder with a posh accent
very posh
indeed
a bit like russel brand
a bit like the other one
jonafan ross
init
so there
i m is sofo osho
im conused about everything
i love my non correcting technique
i love everything
right now
right here
i ve been waking at three in the morning
is a new era
is a new year
i never wanna go back to london
east london
i wanna stay here
in soho
be posh
with the west hollywood
maybe it s hackney that got to me after all
all this pretensiousness
all this feeling like a loser comunity of the rich
rigit
right wing
i dont know
enough
enough of east london
even north
it cant decide
it can fuck itself
i dont hate it
i just moved on
i dont feel like goin back
i ve made it work
i ve put it to work
egsactly
i can exploit it
spoil it
it dont ma ah
it s been abused for too long
far too long
i m at the corner of top shop and carnaby street
nearly
it s all good
i m looking at gap
it s looking back at me
it knows i know
it knows i m about to make a joke at the beautiful children
workin in its factory
it ll go like that
treat them keen
or it gives a new dimension to teach them when theyr young
haha
kata mana kata yuo
tragic
spoil sport
spoil yourself
shop in gap
have the childhood they never had
gap kids
onoma kai prama
gap kids
should have a picture of some kids working
i ll do it
it infuriates me and makes me sad
i can do some comedy
i can print some t shirts
it ll say gap kids
and have a picture of kids working in a factory
and i can make some money
and i can spread awareness
and it ll be like
sad but true
the donkey show
maybe my email should be i do comedy
representation of the future
re interpretion of the future
gap kids
a photo of kids
and then i do comedy.com
(one word)
yes i could do that
and you could order some tee shirts
and i could self actualize
also i phone five
to proto mu tilefono
my first phone
i phone
having a kid touching it playin with it
it being indian and looking at it like it s a toy
and at the back a similar kid working at the factory
sounds good
people would love to wear it
i think
i feel
i know
i phone five productions working conditions arent good enough
i support slavery
i phone five

you have a beautiful cab but do u mind turning the engine off
like fuck off
like right off
off off
off

i put nets in my factory so my emploees have fun trampolining
i see things different
what ad is that??
i am a twat
i support slavery by buying a i phone and i think i m a hipster
i wear clothes made in china by little children
i swear to god

epiphany

so
the shoes
they looked cool
they looked nasty and horrible
i contemplated having them
i wore them
they smell trouble
rubbal
i bought them
they hurt me
the shoes called xxx
they picked me up really quickly
i let them go for hours
i went back
they were mine
we ll see
it s a good trip
a trip worth having
called life
the shoes you and me whatever
i died went to heaven
whatever
when i bumped into u in the street
the shit got real
you cleaned the green off my skin
you said it and smiled
then i said somehting about u and me makin a joke
you took it
you always felt like u could contain me
you always seemed to know
everything
how
why
an incredible connection
sister souls
however u wanna call it
i dont mind
i dont care
at this point
i m in london
im working on doin my debut in edinbrah
i need ten days in order to survive\ relax
what do u want
baby
this shit s forever
nothing is forever
life is transient
transistant
consistant
life is complicated and simple
life is you and me
knowingly
on a different level
in a different universe
maybe i feel more alone
since we ment
maybe i know u ve existed
i know
it dont matter
thing is
you know
u can t resist me
for a reason
the simple reason that werenot together
hashtag
where we should have been
might have been
are
if were not destroyed
in a different universe
in a new level
it doesnt matter
im sorry i can t touch u
but i can feel u
and u block my heart
and i had to wear my sunglasses
but the story is
ur with me
it doesnt even matter
we r not together
but we r sister souls
ur mine
and u r in love with another and ur dating blah blah
but ur heart
ur physical body
we r connected
u can run around do stupid things
u can feel things u can be in love
in a different universe
but in my world
our hearts were once connected
and now there s only half
of each
so whatever u do
remember that
if it feels weird
is because it is
and this my friend is a reasonable explanation
im sorry
x
3 june 15

ive been thinking

clearly
the thoought of havin children blah blah
and now im like let s go to syria
lets go to lesvos even better
when would u have the chance to save a warrior
children
what do u think should happen
should we let the other ones die?
cos we havent come inside of them
nearly
i was mastrubating all nite and i havent slept
nevertheless
a profound thought
one that highlights that im not free
to worry my parents
im thirty seven
i ve made one decision
i want to go for a month in that place and save children
say i teach yoga
i can t get arrested for that
i ll be the first high profile that did that
imagine physically u are the link to these children and the life
the life and creativity
the reason they came here for
maybe i should ask this guy
why not
i ll be like hey i had an idea
there ll be a war in greece more likely but while were still at it
would u like to save the children
the syrian children
that were doomed to die anyway
would u like to do something hot
like buying them drinks
like water
do u think u would help
i think so
let s have a week
a week of goodness of our heart
we cant stop cryin
but we ll have done it
and it ll make us people
stronger people better people people
i am sorry
it is not a crazy idea
and i can not let it go
i suffer with it
i can do some comedy for sure
better comedy
take this
and then we can laugh about it
make my parents proud
make my mum tell to amalia my daughter is in the island helping the imigrands
the imigrands
who by the way -  like the lamp in the shower- is anyone s responsibility
i am fuckin sorry
i am so sorry like never before
i can t stop thinking about it
it s for a reason
it s a stairway to heaven
ur breaking the karma
of tomoro
today
like anyone could have done it
anyone with no brain
it s a nobrainer is what imean
in any case i changed seats in the cafe cos there s no batery blah blah
i m lookin hot
i can use that hotness
precisely
i can draw the attention
do u think they should die?
can we have a documentary of the direct consequences of the war please
cos we seem to like it
do we let them die in the land of socrates
is this what socrates would have done
i mean they had slaves
probably yes
do we have to take the negatives of every civilisation
they had time to think
time to reflect
deflect
decompose
we are already dead