the thing is ye again

it doesnt bother me
it s just life
it s life
it
is
life
isnt it
u can t feel a certain way
rephrase
u can feel how u want
u can feel
just feel
it
it s life
with a pulse
u cant control it
u just have to be it
it
in itself
knowingly
it
u and me
it is its own right
it
ride it
ride the wave
wave away
it
it s gonna be great
it
maybe do something there
it
it
it
it
in itself
it
away
it
maybe u deserve to be single
cos it s better
it
is
better
it
is
better
u have more control
u walk away
knowingly
u did the right thing
it was it
it basically wasnt
it really wasnt it
itself
in itself
within itself
its own right
it
u and me
it
eat
good
it s been emotional
it s hard to breath
it
without coming
it s all right
to survive
without being
it
is it
is it tho
why that day
to this day
it
self reflects
self evaluates
self righteous
it
it knows
no need to swear
no need to prove its point
it shrugs away
it
has
been there
it is
a traveller
it is
an experience
it is deep
on the surface
it s winning
on a surface angular
it surfs the waves
it s always on the top
and it s under
it s ir relevant
it works both ways
it s besides u
despite u
despises u
not
it
has no hard feelings
just mellow
just honey
it s sticky
it s got personality
and once u know
u were there
it s always gonna be there for u
it s u
it
it aknowledges
u dont even try
u run
u cry
it s all right
it
it brings u back
memories
to imagination
instigation
it
feels
right
it
knows
knowingly
sorrow and cries
forever dies
right here
in the beverly hills hotel
the one with the pretty woman
it
left a fart in the lift
it
never recovered
it
its smashin
it caused trouble
it saw the light
it was the light
it
breath knowingly
it
sigh away
it was it
u never doubted it
it was just
not fair
to compare


27 10 15

well in uncertainty

i was gonna say dwel
this girl is hangin off the boat
quite literally
hangin
off
the boat
i quite like hangin
i quite like literally
in any case
i quite like russel brand
i d quite like to rent my flat
my fat flat
maybe beg some money as well
swell
i mean
mean
what do u do
do
is this my stule of poetry
potery
is it even
evne
in the oven
oven
is it jewish
jwish
where are yo ugoin uwith this
u just ruined it
ruined it
it s an eccho
eco
anyway
annies
anies
i m cold
od
old
ppot
odd
in any case
i had no right
right
i m losing my shit
shot
shit i ment shit
shit
in any case
case
basket case
in case
just in case
case
i ll have to ring the fuckin thing and borrow money
and thats the end of that
that
doit now
now
now
now
now
save
save
i need a swim
swim
i need a fuck
fuck
ah that was a good one
good one
i need a bear
bear
well
swell
in any case
ace
it s gonna be fine
ine
line
nine
mine
i ment mine
nine
was a mistake
ache
in any cse
case
fix the ocomputer
octopus
octopussy
and shut the microwave
for the love of god
god
x
8 4 15
i mean
4 8 15
15

two thirty

ah
writers block
how beautifully manifested
i didnt write for a few days
and
then some
i had sex with edinbrah dude
i love this boy
how he uses me
how he uses life
beautifully
it s assertiveness
he asked
u dont mind if i wake u up- and fuck you
i nodded and said no
i heard me saying
it was interesting
it was probably the only guy
that i trusted
what was it
he was redundant
he wasnt tryin anything
we were two beautiful souls
bare and burried
swallow hard
what is it
i m tryin to say
brian
the life of brian is political and is the best thing ever written in the history of years
after shitting is believing i may add
so
i m gonna be fine
i m not tryin anything
concept and artist- maria tea
they r all artists here
in dalston
i fit in
my efforts are appreciated
i have a hole in my pants the size of a baby s bottom
it s like that
it s good to know
i am wearin a onesie
back to ryan
so he said
this is the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me
and i looked back
god i want it
ha
i do love your dick
do i love it cos it s yours
i have loved a dick or two mainly because of the dick
i mean
you know what i mean
maybe girls do
girls shouldnt
i mean women
i mean men
maybe men
i dont know
i do!
you an i
it s a personal joke
only y o u get it
and a girl from essex
x
21  10 15

i like me

i decided
i like me a bit too much sometimes
but isnt it what it s about
that s why i can be a comedian
i dont like my computer and what it does to me and the way it calls me user
user
loser
fuck you
de confuse me
i need to know how i appear on facebook from someone elses account
cunt\
can do
anyway
anyhoo
im in santa monica
i ve been thinkin
on my way here
about xxx
of course
of curse
it was always xxx
it was always here
it s the reason that i god here
god
god just gave me the reason
the answer
so it was god then thank god
thank xxx
was god xxx
am i missing the point
in any case i was gonna say it s the reason i think about my parents all the time
sometimes
at the back of my head
it s cos i m here because of them
but i am who i am because of me
its circumstantial
really
and my sheepskin jacket is in fact...
foreskin
it s foreskin
foreskin jacket
foreskin wallet
foreskin bag
foreskin sneekers
foresneekers
foresake
for fucks sake
art for arts sake
furks sake
seriously
in any case dude just gone
he was nice he said hello
im at an artist getto
ghetto
im in the ghetto
im basically sittin here just sittin with my lapdop in my bag\
honestly
and i was thinkin how romantic that it s a place full of artists
full of retards
like there s no tomoro
today
fully dysfunctional
i love it
i feel at home
i feel controversial
special
i feel
i feel like i belong
full of weirdos
full of i dont know i ll stop here
the last time i left it broke my heart
just like london
i felt that i d done well and it was a grand exit
but i do need that photo that xxx took off me
i need it
it s the background of my life at the moment
is an elecltrically charged being
it s something
nearly something
anything
i need water but can i ask for another one
they only put a tiny bit
i mean come on
i got a bottle
fuck it
grandiose
so am i gonna do the gig at 8 30
i mean why not
what else am i gonna do
i could go on a date
or try to pull someone
i would like that
i mean
xxx said he ll contact me
he didnt
innit
this guy thinks he s in cos i laid eyes on him twice
even tho it s just the two of us in here
eye contact
it s the perfect place for a picture 
xxx and xxx and people are in venice
i could do that
i could go to venice
with xxx and xxx
it could be fun
a bit of drama
i m better than this
am i tho
yes
there wont be any artworld as it s july and it s irrelevant
deeply irrelevant
late june
whatever
in any case
it s the day im landing
and with another three hours i land in the house of resurrance
resurrection
affection
whatever
i mean\
they love me
and they know me
and so do i
i love them and i know them
and theyr excellent
people
they get it
i mean we ve all got drunk and acted retarded
i think it s a bit offensive tho
for venice
it requires refinidion
redefinition
refinement and definition
that boy was boss man
that s why i broke up
broke down
broken into
that really was the reason
i followed his facebook and i really like him
we like the same things
it s a killer
we really digged it
we digged it
i need to google digged it init
maybe i should go to venice
maybe i will
and maybe i wont
i may do just that
i will and i wont
maybe xxx sends me happy birthday
and safe trips
and whatever else
maybe baby
maybe i m made for you
and chewy
maybe
but maybe
me and the fluffy boy
we arrive together
maybe
maybe what do u think
maybe
i dont know
maybe just maybe
maybe i dance to hip hop
maybe
i just hope too much
maybe pinky inky and plue werent pink
maybe
maybe ur just there to remind me
that i need something weird
maybe
something better
something bigger than u
something
maybe ur just happy
maybe i m just upset
maybe i m just depressed at human nature
as a resulf
result of
whatever
the only good thing wiht my computer is that it wont try to correct em
me
auto
on the upside it does lots of crazy shit
it s like it s on crack
cocaine
ketamine
not always
nearly

shall we

now now
 this guy
came here
with his wifey wife
i mean why do i care
i m in the middle of nowhere
and i can t enjoy it
i have too much time to self reflect
it ll be fine
trust me
i m an alien
i ll be fine
this kid smiled at me
htis other kid is hysterical
i m never gonna let myself go
u can say what u like
all these fat women with babies
they just ate another one
i wanna fall in love
be
relocate
do my comedy
i did say
it really is the wrong approach i have at the moment
be friends with a producer
dont fuck it up
xxx was tryin to help you
but you know
find me on fb
i ll come to your show tomoro
have some fun
i mean
let s see
init
i d like to find a place to work
a quite place
with wiifee
this woman nearly broke her foot and shat herslelf and died
she s only ninety
this pleasant thing at this time of the day has old age and babies
where are the hot single guys
where is the hollywood
i changed my ind
the hottest venue so far is the balloon
and nod just cos russel went there
but if i m honest
i like the wee room
it s only little
it ll be fine
isnt it
just thought i saw someone called someone someone
i cant touchtype wuite a lot
just now
i m like
who knows
what if it rains
i lt here
oowwooww
it s like that
i like everything about it
isnt it
i d love that
so i ll definatley go to the beehive
cat in the hat balloons
let s see
isnt it
we ll find out
i mean
i m actually nice
isnt it
isnt it
isnt it
isnt it
ohh noo
well i guess
who cares
so i ll be goin there
we ll be fine
it ll be awresome