frantic use of the mouse

I could hit u

But u just stopped clicking

Am I doing the same with my typing

Ah alas u started again

Ur mouse is right next to my ear

Or so it seems

I had this moment before where the thought of hitting you made me back off and quiet

Not any more

I want blood

It s strange that we r living in this socialized world

Where children are dying and mothers are on benefits

And we are still so close to our insticts as to kill someone over a mouse

The rat row

The mouse trap

Death over mouse

Which one was the Agatha kristy one

Oh I m just logged off internet again of course

That is the other one I could kill

No cos that s like a long time abuser is kinda my friend

Is that familiarity effect

When u r logged on u feel that familiar rush in ur gut and u know

It s been done before

It s not new

Like the click of the mouse

I genuinely wanna know

What is it that he s doing?

Shooting kids in Iraq?

I mean what can get u so interested

What can be so intriguing

Get u so hooked

Closing the nhs??

What is it

Firing people in the know?

Do u think if I fart he may stop

Do u think I should shit myself??

I can t hurt him

I m not drunk enough

I ve had one coffee

I was contemplating a second one

It s when u know ur nervous system is starting to break

It s nice here

It could be my studio

That s what I always say when I come to the library

Then again I need a wee

And the clicking of the mouse

I mean it could be anywhere

Why am I not wearing my head phones

Like everybody else

No one else necessairily

I could build the best studio

Out of my house

I really could

I could

Couldn’t i?

I mean the guy that just walked in thinks he s so hot

Or he saw me and he tried to tidy up

Dunno

Eitherway

He had a cigarette

We can all smell it

Am I anal

Am I vaginal?

Am I or am i?

Who am i?

Am I blonde or am I brunette?

At least I recognise these are not important questions

They are remotely interesting to anyone but myself

I was reading about living in la vs living in London

It was all

Ah im into smoothies

Im like

Shut up

How about dying

Cos thats all ur good for

Make some fuckin manure for the chamomiles in my garden

Cos if I say back yard

It can only mean one thing

Celavie

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