so i say

casually]

hello xxx
like nothing s happening in my soul
like i have things to do'= people to see
that are more important
like my heart isnt bleeding
like my pussy isnt burning
like i havent watched porn
like i havent bothered with condoms
like my vagina isnt good enough
it is
good enough
it is magic
and anyway
with the this and the that
i logged off facebook
i m thirsty now and i live on the third floor
i m fucked
literally and metaphorically
in any case im not
i m safe
safely done
safely un done

i saw xxx
he s sooo annoying
i swear he s crazy
like the kinda annoying u can t tolerate
like he wont shut up
for nothing
i had to say shush
shush so i can talk
shush so i can say what i want
and stop touching me
and he tried to kiss me on the lips
i guess we all have to give it a go
i guess i could have done the same
i guess he felt obliged to kiss me
maybe he felt it was too good
maybe he felt too much
maybe it was the point
he closed the door and couldnt re open it
xxx babes
i never ment to play with you
in those terms
i wanted to play clean
i think
maybe it was neccessairy
third time lucky
the luxury of the bauhaus
in any case
a film called sorry
who wants to see it
a film called save
or safe
or sorry
a film called democracy
a film called aristocracy
meritocracy
we ll see
he may get married
but right now he s happily married
he still wants to think he d be a naughty boy
he wants to be treated like that
and he will
safe or sorry
we ll see
mother fucker
x