forgiveness

“I should have seen it coming.” The words don’t surprise me, but they piss me off. I pull away and glare down at her. “Don’t you fucking dare, Nell Hawthorne. Don’t you dare put this on yourself. You should never have to see shit like this coming.” She backs away, stunned and afraid by the intensity I know is radiating off me. “Colton, I just meant he’s always shown—” “Stop. Just stop right there. Granted, you should’ve never gotten involved with a douchetard like him, but that’s no excuse for what he did.”
― Jasinda Wilder

Yes and yes

I mean I wish I could think like that

I can and I cant

It s that

The opposite question is

Why didn’t I see it

I saw it I just wished I didn’t

I wished I could close my eyes and let it go

It s funny how u can look back and take only one or two moments

And never trust people again

It s

9 8 13

You found yourself in this situation

In this self destructive sad circle

And you did destroy yourself

Your faith

Your ability to want to

Be close

Be friendly

Be nice

And then u took this moment

Cos it s a trauma

And had to kinda examine it

What

Forgive urself through it

Let it burst

Into tears and laughter

And let it sweep you though its intensity

Like a wave

And now your being sunk in

And soon u ll be offshore

It ll be good

It s ok

Baby

You were there

In the midst

You got swept through by the wave

The current was self destructive

But

U didn’t take drugs

You just let your body be swept by the current

And now

You know

Tears will come and go

It will always be painful

But a memory

And it can cause u the pain a memory can

But

It can not delete your future

Pain and shame

Are close

Dictate

It s not fair

Done and dandy

What u gonna do

Let it settle

Take ur time

Not a lifetime

Of regrets

Write your book

Be good to yourself

Live the dream

You ve milked it

You ve done well

Or you ve done what u ve done

You ve been interested

You ve tried

You ve tried as much as you could

You could say that

I mean

U ll be fine

You will be fine

You don’t know

U know

You know stuff

You know stuff

You understand

You are sorry and sad

And tired

And all you need is a fuckin holiday

No one to tell you what to do

You are fine

You will be fine

No commitments

All good

You ll be fine

You are fine

You are fine

All good

And russel brand

Yes well I love him

He s fuckin great

He s my angel

He s self loathing

But

I love the way he is

And

I want to print my book

Just give me a deadline

Shall we say the twentieth

Yes on the 15 th I start typing

Yes baby

It s all fine

Can be done

Yes yes

Or an hour a day maybe

What about

X rambling

Not

Egg yegomeister

Ich liebiedich

It ll be fine

Love u

Got to go

Thigs to do people to see

Nine  eicht therteen