i need constant

I need constant cock supply

Or shall I say

I need consistant cock supply

And lemons

I ve taken sex down to a different level

And although I was looking xxx in the eyes yesterday

We had to have a distance I m loving this position

But in the closer distance I wasn’t loving this position

And you know

It was average

But the thing is

It s a test

Against the machine

I like sex it s been established

But

I need constant cock supply

I don’t like the idea of the whole freedom and availability

As I said

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Yes and I ll keep coming

I want to have sex with xxx and look into his eyes when he s fucking me

And I cant help but feel a bit excited of the prospect

Is it bad

I ve always had that fuckin connection with xxx that somehow rings true on many levels of unavailablility un forgiveness forgiveness but the truth is

There is always someone else

I think there s more to that

I think there is a triagon

He probably never felt it but I did

And she did – xxx-

The thing is me and xxx shared a boyfriend for a while

And it was all right

Interesting

Maybe how it should be

But we were kept apart

And when we met

I think that it was one of the most unique moments in my life

Like when u meet someone s baby

Someone you love

It was really very special

We needed a hug or something

And I was with xxx

And xxx was very very nervous

And then we left

And you know it s funny how things turn out

Yesterday all I could think about when we were laying having sex was xxx

Fuckin bizzare

Is it though

It is this thing that re visits me

xxx fell in love with xxx

And xxx fell in love with xxx

But they were both fuckin me

And it s almost as if

I don’t know

Am devastated

And jealous

And I d like them to fall in love with me at least for the duration of the fuck

Its like somethings missing

Something s not right and I m working it out

What is it

I m not in love with them cos they re not in love with me

Or sthin

I m just intensely curious

What is it about other people that makes people fall in love with them but not me

It s a fuck I suppose

But a very interesting fuck

A very intense fuck

I am told I can offer

Yes I know

I can

I m magic

And xxx keeps saying that he only gets that with me that he can t fuck me and that he s constantly in the verge of orgasm

And he said that yesterday he said

I remember that with you

When I go near your pussy I can t I feel I m gonna come

Ok the last phrase was executed rather than shared in so many words

Thing is

I know why that is

I know it s me and how I feel and my mind is blocked with transforming energy

It s electric

It was the best glutes workout yesterday like a bridge with an uneven surface

Bring it on

Legs on the door

Lift your hips and pulse

Fuck me

And then he said

I m gonna come I think

And then I said

Well in that case

And we started fucking

And he came

And he said it was intense

And I said

Well

I –

Well –

With xxx sex was like that but better

Bigger cock

More comfortable position

But

Thing is I can kiss ian

But no penetration is rather frustrating although it did feel good

It will feel even better with the Italian guy

But for egsample

But everyone wants to fuck me

When it comes to bed

Experience is rather predictable

I do get my moment of being pissed off

Like yesterday

Xxx couldn’t fuck me in the precise moment that I could come cos he would

So he d wait and enter in a second and in a different angle

Fuckin frustrating

And ok the glutes workout was fun I felt it today

One of the best

And he said

I like the thought of you masturbating

He fancies me all right

He has that sexual fixation with me if I may say

He wouldn’t like to share me and he wouldn’t like to lose it over me fuckin one of his mates

Xxx

I know

I think they had this thing

And he knows I m a bit hm dubious dodgy and curious lets say

And I d fuck xxx yes I probably would

Just as he reminds me of xxx

I think I should

But I don’t want to play with his heart

Card

Or pay him back or get any sort of compensation

His trick is clear

He wants sex and polyamori and all

It s all right actually

That s probably why I like him so much

Cos he respects me

And he does treat me like one

And he sets the boundaries and he stays within

Yes he did say he was probably gonna get back with his girlfriend

That was before or after our first time

I don’t know

But I did leave a toothbrush

And he did probably thow it away

And you  know

Its this kind of psychological investment

Physiological

Swallow hard

Shallow hard

Yes and he did say

Oh you brought my jumper

Yes I remember the nite I felt like shit

When xxx was coming back

And when I said no that s it

And I went out with xxx

And he said well u smell of something

Well I smelt of xxx

His house and his scent

And I love his body scent

I can smell him and lick his armpits and it turnd me on

I fell so at home and possessed and positioned

Somewhere where I cant get out from

Somewhere safe

Held together nicely

And sometimes I dissolve

I melt on this bed and it s an experience

 I feel my hands really light and nearly clamped a bit like branches of trees

Where blood is now running smoothly and in an angle

Like a lake

Like you can see the blood cells one by one slowly one moving towards the other

But like in slow motion

And that s how I feel

And then I pull his hair or get a constant grip

Or bite him

More to assess the hard with the soft

To test that I can still hold on to something

That I m not gonna disappear

To test the strength against something

As I m falling apart

And it works and it feels so good

Ah

And for two days now there s a song in my head

We could have had it all

And I cant stop crying

Ce lavie

Lets see

You know what that means

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