plug it in

Plug it in

Or find another power source

My computer basically said it all

It gave the answer again

It s a bit like god

Speaking to me

Spankin me a little once and again

With a gay crush

Anyway

It is a funny message

Very un funny as well

Very frank and quite un fair

Un friendly

It says what there is to say

Assertive

Plug it in or find another power source

Aha

Get ya

Yep yep read the signs baby right in front of  you

Xxx

You are the closest thing to pitsipopaki

I don’t even like nice bums

I just like yours

I like lying next to him

You

I was looking at your bum the last time we were in bed

And then it really was the last thing you shown to me

I thought we were friends

I was kindly surprised with the baby message

I certainly didn’t want for you to disappear

Appear

I don’t know

I wanted you to take control take over nice to see you be a man

I wanted you

Ximeroma savatou

It appears

You genuinely told me good on me for pursuing to see you that Friday

And you also started pickin it up when u came to my house

And you also told me that you should give me keys to your flat

And then I said I d be in this position

And you said no not in this position

I mean it s schizophrenic it s not just me

Which position xxx

What are you talking about

And then you told me

No it s not important

I m really hot

I should change

I did it

Fanelaki

Much better

Farted

There

What you say

I wanted to be with you

Babes

I really fuckin did

I think

That s how it felt

It felt right and I was gaging for it and I was there

I didn t like your impatience

But I thought it manageable

Considering

Considering I m getting old and horny

In a sense nothing can bring me down

Considering you outstretched me and then you licked me and you came allover it

That was divine

The fact that I saw you getting so high from licking my pussy

It was fuckin fascinating

And the morning of that you kinda deemed your share

You went

Not before I finish here

Oh my god

Never have words sounded so horny

I remember biting my lips and you seeing me biting my lips

I don’t know what came first

I remember you fucked me from behind

In a very that s what I wanted to do sort of way

I fuckin loved it

I loved the selfishness and the fuckin fuck you sort of shit]

I loved you?

I don’t know

But at the door I told you you can come in my mouth

And you said oh my god

And we left the house

And you dressed me cool

Like I m your little pony

And we walked out to the moon

And we came back

A bit sorry

It was our first fight

Not fight merely a disagreement

Of horizons

Of futures

Of civilizations

Pretty deep really

Anyway

It happened

Sigh

Then we fucked again I think

Of course

You said it was the most intense fuck of your life

Mm

I said it made me angry

I mean to be honest yes but my heart wasn’t in it

I felt it was kinda trying to keep us silent

You with me

I don’t know

I loved being with you

But there was a but somewhere

Anyway we did it]

It was all right

Then I went home

I took you to your laundrettes

And I kissed you goodbye

I liked that

We could kiss

Then I got the bus and went home

And felt fully trained pot trained functional

I felt like a good girl that I could now keep quiet and according to the plan

I could just be

Just be

Contain myself

I never miss flatmates but when I do

I do

So you sent me a text later sayin you fell asleep

Problem being

That was at eleven

Xxx saw you at like two

And he said so to me weeks later

He said so

But he was pissed

Maybe it was eleven

Thing is

I felt bad

I felt there was something there

I don’t know what to say

You know when things start happening

And less things are being said

I don’t know

I felt committed

And disconnected

Anyway xxx hope you are good

I really do

I hope what we had was special

And it will stay special at least for the moment being

It may go to memory it may go to eternity

Or it may

It may just stop

Just like that

Pause

Pause just pause

All we need is a pause for once

For once we know what we need

A pause is never oh never a bad idea

Pause is what I will in fact print on my finger

Pause

Pause I will google

Comes from the greek word pafsi- to ceaze to exist

Init

But it s used as a momentary pause

Paraphrased essentially

So if you pause

You will continue

Until the end

It s like that

There ll still be an end all right

But would I be good with him

Would I not always want more

Care less

I mean would it work now really

I don’t know

That s true

I don’t know

I would love to meet him

Get to know him

What he s about

But

He didn’t give a shit

He was too detatched

Like a house

He didn’t

All he said was maria baby you r so hot

And I always said it back

Your so hot

I ment it

I loved it

We could rock

And roll

But we kinda stopped

I called him spasticated and he laughed

I told him I sent him a msg with Victoria beckham and he said he didn’t get it

I like you

I fuckin like you

Don’t go

Dad?

Okei now

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